I need to prep for surgery. Did you know that doctors use sledge hammers for hip surgeries?
Oh yeah, like the ones they use for construction sites and shit. They use those
hips. Its the only thing strong enough to loosen the bone. Freaky, uh?
Today was good. It was one of those days I miss, when its just my sister and me. No one else. I am content, I am safe, when I am with my sister. We don't hide things, we don't bottle things; we are ourselves and we are not afraid. We shopped, laughed, ridiculed everything we exposed ourselves to. I think thats what a sisters' relationship is suppose to be like, though my father thinks we are 'too clingy
'. That insulted Amber a lot and annoyed me. What's wrong with our relationship being close? *frowns*
We went on a shopping rampage it seemed. Tearing through stores like; Just Jeans (she brought me a shirt from there ^^), Esprit, Portmans, Jeans West, Bras 'n Things (ugh), Garricks (yesss!), Gloria Jeans (holy fuck, YES!
), Target (meh) and of course, the jackpot Myers
. (Oh how we love
: we order another eye-piece for Cornelius, as the one we had has gone missing, mysterious... But it has been for awhile, since last year. : \
We also brought a proper camera bag to play host to our beloved, its cosy and snug. Fits everything we got with him. Amber and I are still eying off those 40Ds
though, oh man, beautifully crafted. If anything ever goes wrong with him, we're upgrading to that. *nods*
While in Garricks, I asked again about the Neutral Density filters
and yet again
, the staff are useless. I'd expect the staff to know things about cameras if they work in a fucking CAMERA SHOP!!?
and all those neat attachments you can buy for a 58mm... gah. Peoples' incompetence
annoys me, as does burnt coffee.
Can't believe I Photobooth'd and enjoyed it. -_-
And you can't half tell we're are related
, can you?There's only two things I love more than myself (that aren't living, of course);
Rufus and Cornelius. *nods* They are non-breathing and aesthetically pleasing. That and they're both extremely good-looking.
Mostly because I regulate my days around them both, and I know they'll always be there when I need them.
And yes, we engage in coversation regularly, like I did with my beloved Kevin. (Death threats are always on the board of legitimately and are served daily).
And yeah, Jess needs to get out more. I am feeling unrealistically arty at the moment, maybe its the exposure to Toulouse-Lautrec
. Ohhhh, how I do love French prostitutes (well, French people in general
, it seems). The over-exposure is inspiring me to paint and draw. And making me excited about Europe, then again everything about Europe is exciting.
Like my partner, I miss her so much. :(
Best facial expression I ever pulled, exactly like the retarded chocobos on VG cats. In the Photoshop'n verse;
Heres' what I've been working on at the moment... from a dream sequence/New Years. (Hard to explain)
from done, but I am please with her. She looks exactly
how I imagined her. But I still have all of Paris to paint
and that man looks rubbery still
and has some serious closet vampire issues. Why do I give myself such tedious asks? : \In the latest family news;
I hate my family and its never ending problems and standards. Just when we're travelling Ok, someone has to just fuck it up. Thanks dad. Thanks for everything, just go up and leave like you did before. Move back to Melbourne, thats fine. We don't need you anymore.
Too busy getting caught up in yourselves again, just like in Melbourne, hey, mother & father? Amber raised us, in short; she raised me. She grew up too fast, she had resposibilities that weren't her's and other things way before she hit puberty.
I was her responsibility and I am the way I am because of my sister, and I am thankful. She influences everything and I'm just realizing how big a part of my life she is. And she said she 'won't know what to do when I move to Europe' and it makes me sad, because I will be leaving my life
behind basically when I pack up and go.
I had to have my bitter bitch because I really do hate my family environment at the moment and I have all the other personal shit accumulating in the back burner and its going to boil over soon, think of the destruction of the southern hemisphere or maybe not to that magnitude, but pretty damn close. Or perhaps like a volcano or something. BOOOOOM!
I wish people would be upfront and not have to lie all the time in my family and I wish, just for once that my family wouldn't see me as my father and treat me like they do my sister. Am I that much of an outcast? Or do I remind you that much of my father that you feel obliged to treat me this way?
Family standards suck and I hate having to hide what I am until I am away from them all. (meaning my preference and ongoing relationship with Marié)
I hate seeing the truth in people. I hate growing up and realizing peoples' flaws. Like gaining responsibilities you don't need.
Then again, thats part of growing up. Grin and bare it, we must.
On a brighter note; me and my partner are talking again. I have forgiven her. And everything is fine. For now. Nothing is ever certain in long-distance relationships. Its like the hunting season and your a bird. If you're caught out flying in the open, you pretty much dead or badly wounded. Like Bambi's mother.
Also, mother thinks my behaviour is off. Like something is wrong or I am not myself. (which is not fair from the truth...) Even Casey noticed but said it was an act. Not impressed, Casey. Then again we haven't spoke or spent a real amount of time together since the 24th of December to be honest. Thats when things weren't iced over and awkward. I miss the warmth and calm we had, what the fuck happened?
And she keeps trying to poke and prod it out of me. I'm like a turtle, I go closed shelled.
And she's not helping at the moment. She's the last person I want to confine anything in because she can't keep her mouth shut and especially with my problems.
Oh Jess, aren't you a funny little bird? *frowns*
Watch out 2008. Lets get ready to crash and burn in the atmosphere. Woo. :|